The urge to blog

So, this is my first blog spot and I intend on keeping it updated so long as I still feel it therapeutic.

I thought I'd start this blog with the reason behind why I created a blog spot and in searching the reasons why I would want to do this the most prominent that comes to mind is Sean Ramsey. After seeing the creation of his blog ( http://fullmetalsean.blogspot.com/ ) and enjoying reading his ramble thoroughly and hearing how he enjoyed writing it I thought Id take a dabble and see how it went. Whilst creating the blog I convinced myself that there were more reasons to do this, If only to tell people how I'm feeling or what I'm doing so that they may be prepared for my mood or so my friends may offer voluntary support rather than being motioned into doing so after dealing with me in a foul mood for a period, this blog is still a great idea.

I find myself searching for the reason that I am still awake and the only reasons I can think of are

A.) I don't feel I can sleep without resolving issues I have going on in my head.

or

B.) Its an excuse to be lazy at work tomorrow.

Both are relevant to me at present and without delving into my mind its enough to say that I'm thinking off lots of things at the moment. Some subjects that come to mind are Relationships , Future , Hobbies , Study Options and how painful work is. I guess Future is a really broad one and can Apply to anyone and I'm sure we all find ourselves at some stage in the day asking ourselves where we see ourselves heading and though I see the prospect is scary for us all I think its not always wise to get caught up in planning for the future. With this in mind Ill be the first to admit that this is one of my biggest downfalls.

Speaking of downfalls let me take some time to Introduce myself as I haven't really done that on myspace or anywhere else on the web. I have spent the last 3 years of my life ( Since finishing high school ) Studying media courses ( Film an TV , 3D Animation ). I have a wonderful girlfriend Kylie who really is my world its been about 3 and a bit years going on 4 and I just don't see myself without her. I think the most special think about her is that shes so determined and happy with who she is and where shes at and wont change for anyone (sometimes not so good for me :P ) But of course I wouldn't change her for the world. Currently I'm working part time at KFC ( Again ) As its the easiest job I could find for decent pay. Planning on going back to study and do a graphic design course and hopefully land a job in graphic design now I guess the chances are slim but if I don't aim for something I enjoy Ill find myself wallowing in self pity and looking down the barrel of spending a lifetime doing something I don't enjoy which I'm pretty determined to not let happen.

Now Ill be the first to admit I'm LAZY and I hate it but I guess its a trait I will learn to overcome hopefully. I'm highly opinionated which often gets me into shit most of my friends will know this and I often don't hold back when it comes to voicing those opinions. I guess Ive learnt to bite my tongue on most occasions but every now and then I find myself in a spot of bother.

Anyways its going to be gone 12:30 before I get some shut eye tonight so I will probably call it here Stay tuned if your interested ill be back to blog some more tomorrow night

Also once again props to Sean R and his great blog head over there for some creative spin on his live its a great read ! http://fullmetalsean.blogspot.com/

Peace Guys
Be Safe !